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Lost

2012-02-14T23:44:00.001+08:00

I would very much love to say how lost I am in school.

2012-02-14T10:56:00.000+08:00

Happy V-Day!

Off to shoot *^_^*

Keeping strong

2012-02-09T18:39:00.001+08:00

Chilling in my brother's room after my shoot with Charlotte for TNP.

Been so long since I last sat down and watched TV with my bro.. Feels like time is whizzing by so fast yet so slow these days. Been working and studying so much, trying to save up for a huge trip at the end of the year. Hopefully we'll get to see some snow/aurora borealis soon...

Really need my license so I can get away whenever I want to.

.. Also need a car actually. Oh money.... where art thou?

You are who you hang with

2012-02-04T10:58:00.002+08:00

Stayed in on a Friday night. Felt good, was doing up my assignments, getting a head start instead of leaving it to the 2nd last day before submissions. Guess whatever they say is true.. You are who you hang with. Been a little more hardworking these days, I make my bed (simple but I normally don't..) whenever I get up, instantly wash up instead of lazing around, pack my table after I do my work so it's de-cluttered, putting in a little more effort in planning my days ahead so it doesn't clash.. I guess one person really makes a whole lotta difference in my life.

Counting down the days.. 4 months till I graduate and I feel like there's a whole lotta things waiting for me out there. On a good note, agency just made a new comcard for me *^_^* Can't wait to head down and talk to my bookers about July.

Already Gone

2012-02-02T01:03:00.001+08:00

Watching months of effort, building up these walls so I don't feel so easily... Gone in just one single moment. Fuck... Can't believe I'm in this again.

2012-01-31T20:26:00.001+08:00

Last day of January and I'm sick to the bone. All I wanna do is roll up in my sheets, feel some warmth, have some good porridge and sleep till I feel better. I look to the pile on my desk, 2/2,000 word booklet waiting for me to magically conjure out some kick ass essay...

.. Definitely not happening. Not like I have a choice but.. I have to find my way out of this somehow. :'(

Irony

2012-01-30T13:20:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wait and wait but I don't really know what I'm waiting for.

January

2012-01-29T20:37:00.003+08:00

Perseverance is key in everything. NEED TO HOLD ON.

CNY Day 2

2012-01-25T00:51:00.001+08:00

Waking up to a house bustling with people, noises... activities.... Life. It's like a factory over here, with food churning every second, laughter and screams filling the house. I miss this place so much, everything else changes but I know this is the one thing that remains constant. Another 2 days before I leave this place.. I'm lagging behind with the assignments but that can wait.

That said.. Family can't, not especially seeing them only once a year.

Happy new year all!

21st

2012-01-22T01:58:00.001+08:00

Malaysia in less than 8 hours. Stoked! Twin's birthday party was outta control, last two hours all I could remember was running around the chalet with a bottle of Malibu in my arms.

It was in short.. Awesome.

Where are my guiding lights?

2012-01-18T21:16:00.003+08:00

Constantly looking for an escape: Food, booze, late nights out. You name it, I've probably tried it. 3 days and I'll be in Malaysia, accompanied by my grandmother whom I love and miss so much, cousins who I haven't seen in a year, food.. glorious home cooked food, with fireworks and worries left behind on this sunny island. I'll be gone for 5 days.. They gradually get shorter and shorter as the years go by.

I miss my dad.. Even missing the times we argued over a pack of ciggs. Never once forgetting the rage in his face when I smashed his brand new pack in a fit of rash. I miss him and I thought I saw someone oddly similar to him today while I was on the way to school.

Strange how I'm starting to forget the form of his face.. The lifeless photos of him in the house just doesn't cut it anymore.

Joke of the month

2012-01-17T19:10:00.002+08:00

Me: *Knock Knock*

You: Whose there?

Me: Daisy.

You: Daisy who?

Me: Daisy me rollin'... They hatin'

..... I can't stop laughing hahahahahahhaa

Hiatus

2012-01-16T20:25:00.003+08:00

6 incredible days since I last wrote here. Found a phone I lost, spent most of my time with an amazing guy, tried driving in a manual car (I'm surprised, I'm pretty good..), had 5 meals in one day, had a good family reunion dinner.. I'm so happy I can't think straight. :-)

I guess, after every storm there's a silver lining afterall.

Living it up

2012-01-10T17:54:00.002+08:00

Balance is key... Partying hard every Friday and Saturday and working doubly hard for school on the weekdays.. I've finally reached a point of equilibrium in my life. I'm content with everything I have, mom is happy with me working hard and earning more than enough, mapping some business out, getting my driving license after CNY and hopefully getting a ride for my 21st. Thing's are falling into place.. I'm glad I have that one person to thank on the weekends.

2012 is going to be unbelievable.

POP

2012-01-08T19:16:00.003+08:00

Guess the only interesting thing I did this entire week was to go for my first POP ever. The sun was blazing and I got a mini-tan on the left side of my entire body. Pretty memorable.. Haven't used my camera in a while and totally forgot how to set the settings and such.

2012-01-05T11:50:00.002+08:00

There's nothing that scares me more than losing what I shouldn't be having in the first place. 5th day of 2012 and all I feel is doubt, insecurity.. I guess I've been greedy for too long. School's priority and then HK in July.. That's all that matters. Somehow I just can't picture you in it.

Reality

2012-01-03T14:30:00.003+08:00

So beautiful.

Kind of like hands wrapping around a fragile gem, and the awkward curve of the rose gold.

Mom

2012-01-02T21:51:00.003+08:00

To the one person who I deep down love so much and will never ever disappoint in anyway - Happy birthday Mom. Look at us.. All grown up and so different from what we used to be.

Plugged in

2011-12-30T20:55:00.004+08:00

All the crazy shit I did tonight

Those will be the best memories

I just wanna let it go for the night

That will be the best therapy for me

Memories - David Guetta Feat. Kid Cudi

Here's to yellow/green hair. Last friday of 2011, we're going down.

2

2011-12-30T11:00:00.002+08:00

Can't get over how blue the sky is today. 2nd last day of 2011.. 2012 seems so clear to me now. I know what I want and I know I'll get it by hook or by crook. The new year awaits.. :')

Deep down

2011-12-28T00:34:00.001+08:00

It's Wednesday and I have an extreme urge to go all out tonight.

Christmas 2011

2011-12-26T14:07:00.002+08:00

Christmas was awesome. There were no gift exchanges, no petty words, no fighting/arguments within our family this year. Something was different this year too, instead of roaming around town endlessly, I ended up in a room full of people I've never expected to meet, let alone hang out with, playing Mahjong till 6 in the morning. It felt good, it felt refreshing.

.. And I think I just might have met the sweetest guy ever.

2011-12-23T10:42:00.002+08:00

2 days to Christmas, I'm on my way to print my stuff to settle my school assignments once and for all. Can't believe 2011 is ending in approximately a week. It's been a great year.. But I look forward to the next. Having an important test shoot next week, agency director and my head bookers will be there to direct the shoot and it'll decide on whether I'll make/break it for HK.

Feeling kinda Christmassy this year even though I haven't done any shopping.

Merry Christmas Y'all!

Tradition

2011-12-20T19:09:00.004+08:00

400th post.

Had a pretty strange day, helped co-ordinate some event at Mapletree Business City, came home, did some bumming around in my brother's room, crashed at 3pm and woke up at 5:30. Craving for some Garetts now.

Last assignment to go and I'm done for the semester.

3 Weeks to New Year

2011-12-18T18:55:00.001+08:00

If you had this time again
Would you do it all the same?
I wonder?
Oh, would I?

Emma Hewitt - Colors / Armin Van Buuren Remix

2011-12-18T12:22:00.002+08:00

Wanna be anywhere else but here

10 Days to Christmas

2011-12-15T10:49:00.002+08:00

10 days to Christmas and another 16 days to 2012. Can't fathom why I'm feeling so.. Uneasy. Feels like something is draining the life out of me and I can't find the root of it. Has only been 5 days after ZoukOut and I'm feeling the need to get out for one long night again. Can't remember how it feels like to be at home with the A/C on, just watching a movie on my bed on a Friday night.. New Years Resolution to get out of this nightlife mess?

I'm praying for 2012 to be better. Excited for my Internship to start and Hong Kong in July...

...2011's been awesome but I think there's too much heartbreak lingering in the air.

Rest is now

2011-12-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

So after an intense week... It's back to the sheets. Been catching up on sleep lately, not doing much assignments even though the deadlines are fast approaching. Took the entire week off, just needed some time alone rather than working my ass off. Mom's on off tomorrow, probably means she's gonna be on my ass hustling me to finish whatever's almost finished so... In short - I'm dreading it.

So well.. Day 2. Feels like forever. Can't wait for the weekends. (No partying involved)

Aftermath

2011-12-11T17:48:00.003+08:00

Died at ZoukOut last night. Didn't manage to hear Armin and Avicii's set. :'(

5pm and I'm still hungover.... Good day guys.

ZoukOut2011

2011-12-10T14:08:00.003+08:00

FINALLY, THE DAY HAS COME.

Gonna be an epic night. Short update on whatever: Had to quit Abercrombie & Fitch cos my agency had some issues with them and I'm super bummed I can't work opening day but.. It's all for a better cause (I hope.) Looking to go to Hong Kong by July next year after I graduate, and everything's pretty much 70% settled, so I didn't wanna mess things up with my bookers and director at Upfront.

On a side note, was working for Asia TV Forum at Marina Bay Sands for the past 3 days and it was really eye-opening. Got to meet a lot of people from around the world, and my boss... Is da bomb. Had a couple of drinks at a friend's place last night and it looks to me like today, is the day where we test our limits, our ability to stay awake, and... Our stomach lining.

To all those who's going: LET'S RAGE.

Best Friend

2011-12-06T23:34:00.002+08:00

Audiohouse event at MBS tomorrow!

4 Days to Zoukout!

My best friend has massive eyebags and I... Have a dick for a nose.

... I love having her around

Truth

2011-12-05T23:10:00.001+08:00

The people you want and love will never be around

but the others flock like bees to honey

why can't it be the other way around?

Coldplay - Paradise (Official)

2011-12-04T20:05:00.000+08:00

Coldplay... You never fail to amaze me.

4th of December.. Still going strong. Haven't messed up. *Fist Pump*

Trance Around The World Podcast 373

2011-12-03T12:24:00.002+08:00

LOOK AT THE SIZE OF THOSE EYEBAGS

Buy 1 get 1 free anyone?

On a sidenote, glad to have some (decent) polish on my nails after a VERY.LONG.TIME.

December is a fresh start!

Heading to Ikea for breakfast. Ciao bellas!

2011-11-30T14:29:00.002+08:00

Feeling kinda warm and fuzzy on the insides.

...This can't be happening.... Is it?

Life back on track

2011-11-29T14:35:00.003+08:00

Cleaning up the mess. I remembered once, I sat on the edge of my window with a drink in one hand and my back against the window frame. It was 11:46, I looked down on the roads, not one car in sight. It felt good.. Always had a fear of heights but that night I felt like I didn't have anything to lose if I ever lost my balance.

Epic Friday

2011-11-27T18:54:00.002+08:00

So.. Friday, I lost my visa card and some asshole(s) picked it and started signing drinks at Zouk and Nana. Total damage? $651. I'm sooo mad at myself for ALWAYS losing stuff and now I'm in the midsts of lodging a police report, having to communicate with both managements at Zouk and Nana + DBS. It's so freaking annoying.

I'm seriously hoping to get back my $$$. On a side note, got myself a new wallet to reward myself for the epic working hours I've slaved through these months and also from New Face. Have yet to buy dinners for those who came down for me! ;-)

Next few days..... I predict an endless flow of work and then Zoukout2011! I can't wait. 2011 has been eye-opening (in SO MANY WAYS) and amazing. Best sunday of the month today.

Midnight Rantings

2011-11-24T00:40:00.003+08:00

It's 40 minutes past midnight. Finished my report and doing slides for PPT tomorrow on qualitative and quantitative research. I have a million things swimming around in my head... I keep wondering when school's gonna end, work is flooding me and I wanna do so much more with my modeling "career." Life's short, I'm getting "old", I heard that my agency is sending some of us over to Hong Kong and it got me thinking again. I've already lost that one chance to go to Shanghai and Japan 6 months ago, what's it to me if I leave for Hong Kong for 3 months just for the experience of a lifetime?

Then there's things happening at home, mom's retiring and we're looking for another apartment.. This place holds so much memories. I don't want to leave it all behind even though I'm desperate for a fresh start.

Silence all around me and the only thing I hear these days are the crazy thoughts screaming at me.

Starbucks

2011-11-22T10:38:00.002+08:00

Took a $12 cab fare to school only to be greeted by my lecturer who said: "Hi Marisa! You can submit your assignment and leave for home now ^_^" I mentally just stabbed myself. Anyway, working Abercrombie today from 1-7pm so... Beats bumming around at home. I love Caramel Frappucino so much. *Cries of joy*

I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY.

TGIF

2011-11-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

TGIF! Feeding the narcissistic side of me. Let's roll party people!

8 days

2011-11-17T10:33:00.003+08:00

Already Mid-Nov. Can't wait for Zoukout and then Christmas. Somehow I feel like the latter part of this year is so much better than the first half? 2011 was amazing. Met so many strange but wonderful people out. An old man asked if I wanted a ride out to the station after my casting yesterday at Capella and the first thing that went through my mind was "What's there to lose?"

Thought about it for 2 full on minutes and concluded. Nothing.

So I hopped on and saved 20 minutes waiting for the shuttle to come to the hotel.

It was kinda funny, two people in the car with the driver upfront but somehow, I felt.. Comfortable. He made some conversation - What I was doing there, if I played sports, how old I was. I did the same, asked if he was working there and turned out he was some senior level director who flew in for some business meeting and apparently on vacation. There was some silence here and there but it felt strangely welcoming.

I didn't feel jumpy like I knew I would months back... Guess my life has been so messed up I've developed the ability to feel comfortable around a stranger after all.

2011-11-14T11:44:00.002+08:00

Breakfast at Wild Honey -> Movie and then it's back to assignments. Seems like the only letters I tend to get from school now either are fees payment / warning letter of absence. Daycheck: 11 days more.

Come Alive

2011-11-12T14:23:00.003+08:00

Been feeling kinda gutsy lately... Doing whatever I want, not fearing of the consequences, I work a little too hard, party a little too much, drink a little too fast. Keep telling myself I live once, whatever happens, happens. I wanna see the world, do drugs, get high, live it the way I wanna. Meet someone, fall in love, fall out of love.. Some of you might think, this "shouldn't" be the way to live life but then again, what really is? Making a ton of money and then what?

We all have our own set of rules. We make them and we go by it. I see how people get messed up so badly they can never turn around again. I was in love, I was 17.. For some odd reason I came out of it knowing I'll never go back in again until I met you.

.. I wouldn't say I'm in love but I dare say I'm breaking the rule I set for myself months ago.

Hot Dayum

2011-11-11T11:30:00.002+08:00

It's sucha hot day. Work at 3pm for Abercrombie then heading down to Zouk for Juice Mag's 13th Birthday! Can't wait, Friday has taken too long to come. This week has been great. One of those rare weeks where I feel good ^_^ Have a great weekend guys!

Whizzing by

2011-11-08T18:42:00.002+08:00

Time is whizzing by. Not long more before Christmas comes. Sunday night at Winebar.. I was so stoned, I couldn't help it. Thought about all the things that happened this year. The good.. the bad, was definitely an eventful year. Thought about my dad, about how many times I wanted to die because I didn't know what to do with myself. Been saying this one too many times... I'm picking myself up. Bit by bit I'm inching forward.

Twists

2011-11-05T15:42:00.002+08:00

Funny what you asked last night, I was thinking the exact same thing. Only difference? I didn't say what I really felt. Something as superficial as this would never last. Give it a week or two.. You'll see. Don't know how I got so wrapped up in this.

On a sidenote, should really start caring for the people around me.

Kinda late, but I'm willing to try. It's good... Right?

Admitting

2011-11-03T18:31:00.002+08:00

I admit.. I miss the old me. But the old life was too... Safe. We live once, so live it right and proper with no regrets right? I've been cooped up here for too long. There's so much I wanna do but there's no longer that someone beside me. Time to toughen up and do things on my own.

2011-11-01T18:08:00.001+08:00

Starting to hate make-up. If it weren't for work, I'd be bare everyday.

... Dressing up for all the wrong people and all the wrong reasons.

Counting down

2011-10-31T12:34:00.002+08:00

Having everything.... But really nothing at all. The "dark side" is always looming nearby, saw it all go down on Saturday. How long more till it sucks me in?

DC -> Butter

2011-10-30T15:33:00.003+08:00

What went down last night: 30 bottles of champagne for pre-drinks at DC and 15 bottles @ Butter. Woke up feeling TOO bubbly. Probably had like 15 glasses of it but still feeling sober as hell after. Well sundays are always good for recovering and I'm spending some time at home with my mom... Haven't sat down with her the entire week, every time she's home I'm out and likewise.

Hitting the gym in awhile. Porridge iz da bezt.

TGIF

2011-10-27T22:50:00.003+08:00

I'm bored and tired, I need the usuals. Bring on the booze.

2011-10-26T16:04:00.001+08:00

Scariest part of meeting someone new: The first step to putting away stuff just for them. Once you start, you probably won't stop....

Pig sty

2011-10-25T13:23:00.002+08:00

PJs and my cozy room. My mom says I live in a pig sty. Not too bad what.

Contingency Plans

2011-10-25T00:02:00.003+08:00

Tonight I'll be smart and pack along my flats for Above & Beyond @ Zouk.

Whoever's going...... LET'S PARTY.

Mornings After

2011-10-22T10:45:00.002+08:00

Lying in bed feeling like a worm. Another one of those crazy nights. 2 Months ago I would have been at home, under my rock, having a nice decent Friday night, but every week I'm out now. I feel like I've lost myself. Under all the drinking and partying, its obvious that void still is there and still haunts me the morning after.

Sleep is for the dead

2011-10-21T11:46:00.001+08:00

Got home waaaay late last night. Think my mom's kinda upset but I haven't really had the time to talk to her... Itinerary for today: Shoot for 313's Christmas print-ad -> Dinner -> Hed Kandi @ Pangaea -> Zouk! Laidback Luke tomorrow!! Psyched. Gonna be a craaazy weekend.

2011-10-18T21:26:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow night: Butter -> Mink -> Phuture

... In need of a good time.

One for the road

2011-10-18T15:00:00.001+08:00

I can't do well when I think you're gonna leave,
But I know I try
Are you gonna leave me now?
Can't you be believing now?

Pryda VS Empire Of the Sun - Mirage the people

Messed up

2011-10-17T23:06:00.002+08:00

So I told a HUGE secret to my cousin today. It felt.... good. No one knows it's been a big huge boulder in my heart and I hate and beat myself up till this very day about it. I know it's gonna be stuck for a long time but I know now I'm moving on bit by bit.

Carat

2011-10-16T18:43:00.003+08:00

Chilling by the balcony with my fat cat.

This upcoming week will be piled up with work, school and more work. Working in the day... Working at night.. Hanging out with Paulette on Wednesday, a good girl's night out. Putting all the mess and the thoughts out of my mind for good

Quiet Nights

2011-10-16T13:08:00.003+08:00

So... I finally know what to do when I'm not out on a friday/saturday night. Switch on the A/C, turn on some music, curl up and sleep. That's what I did last night... Was quite soothing. Hitting the gym and the pool to get my tan back. Quiet sundays!

On a sidenote, I wanna get inked pretty bad...... Rebel in me needs to maintain.

Scars

2011-10-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Jaded. Everyday I wake up with new names in my BBM, I don't know who they are, I don't know what I do when I'm out and drinking. I have fun, but this isn't what I want. Cleaning up my mess.. this is private afterall.

KEEP GOING

2011-10-11T14:01:00.002+08:00

Us backstage before the show! I miss all of them. Best decision in 2011 to join New Face. I'm so glad I didn't listen to a certain person who discouraged me to join. I know I won't burn out, there's no where else to go but up!

Post

2011-10-10T14:43:00.003+08:00

Living the life of a ghost

Floating endlessly in search for things

2011-10-09T13:56:00.001+08:00

My hands, they were strong

But my knees, they were way too weak

I set fire to the rain

Watched it burned while I touched your face

Outcome

2011-10-07T00:53:00.002+08:00

2nd Runner Up and Best Catwalk for New Face 2011 last night!!!! Super stoked, I was so surprised I was whizzing around forgetting to take photos with the ever awesome 2010 winner Vivien! I had the time of my life, best belated birthday present ever! Now that everything's over, I'm sooo looking forward to scouting for next year's New Face competition! It's gonna be bigger and better, with the 20th Anniversary so girls, don't miss out!!

I had so much fun seeing my friends who were there to support me!! Sylvia, Emily, Aizad, Justin - You guys are seriously Da Bomb. MC Posse! And of course to my mom and aunt Corrinne as well as Beatrice and Charmaine who has always been supportive of me!! Also wanna thank my best friend Mei Siew for coming down too. Small group, but the best who've never doubted me in anyway. I am seriously SO STOKED for what's in stall!

*Thanks for the flowers May.Be! Big ass surprise back stage when I saw the bouquet. Seriously brightened my mood somehow. Am really hoping to talk to you one day!

GOODNIGHT! I'M OUT xx

October 6th

2011-10-06T10:56:00.002+08:00

Probably the most memorable night ever for me this year.

N E W F A C E 2 0 1 1 F I N A L S

7pm, Takashimaya Square! ALL.MUST.COME!

New Face 2011

2011-10-05T16:28:00.002+08:00

I hate Adele but she's on repeat.

C H A S I N G P A V E M E N T S x

Itinerary

2011-10-04T10:41:00.002+08:00

Monday: Work @ Abercrombie - 2pm to 7pm

Tuesday: School 10am - 2pm

Fitting for New Face - 3pm @ Takashimaya

Agency Training - 5pm @ Upfront

Rehearsals @ Takashimaya - 9pm to Midnight

Wednesday: Fitting for show on 7/10

Thursday: Full day for New Face Finals (!!!!) @ B2, Takashimaya

Friday: Full day show for Tangs Orchard.

Saturday: Work @ Abercrombie - 11am to 8pm

My week..... is so packed. Wish the girls and I all the best for New Face!

Do drop by 7pm, this thursday @ Takashimya to support the girls and I!

Big 2-0s

2011-10-02T22:20:00.002+08:00

So how does it feel being 20? The same.. Just a day older than I was before. This year I thought I'd have something big, something memorable.. With a group of close friends but it didn't happen. Paulette was out of town and in London, Sylvia had her own birthday plans, Toke was in the army and the rest of em' boys aren't the same without him around. Mei Siew was in KL (and I'm kinda.... sad she didn't text me) so what's left for me here?

Didn't need much for me to think to go down on Saturday. Drank, got high, had a good time. In a room full of people.... It was just me alone really. Gotta thank Brian for babysitting though. Was mentally kinda in a mess but no one knew. Reached home at 5 in the morning, tried sleeping but I couldn't get any shut eye. Resorted to replying each and everyone's well wishes on FB. Got out of bed at 9 and headed down to Monsoon to get my hair fixed for the finals this thursday.

It's... kinda funny. I don't expect much from New Face but it would kill for me not to win anything. I had a blast on my birthday... Yes I did but it just isn't emotionally filling enough. I was in a room full of strangers. That pretty much summed up my saturday night.

Sunday.. Spent it at home, lazing around. Actual day of my birthday and my mom resorted to texting me to wish me happy birthday. Thought of heading down to the temple to visit my dad but figured the temple wouldn't be open on a sunday. Had a nice dinner with my mom and close relatives, had a simple cake and here I am, penning all these down. Unforgettable. The loneliest yet happy(iest?) birthday?

Welcome to the 2-0s.

2011-09-30T18:54:00.000+08:00

Hanging with the Teddy. Look! Ribbon!

Grand finals

2011-09-28T11:48:00.002+08:00

Slightly more than a week left for the New Face 2011 finals! I'M SOOOO NERVOUS

2011-09-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

Day 3. Not feeling so good. Seems like the only comfort is me reading a book with my cat beside me. On another note, gonna make myself a bowl of noodles.

2011-09-24T12:53:00.001+08:00

Work Work Work

I've only got one thing to say

I'm so sorry

I miss a great deal of people in my life

Lonely

2011-09-22T19:57:00.002+08:00

How long has it been... Almost an entire month. Been cramping my days with so many activities it's so hard to switch my mindset, from one to another. My friends think I'm crazy but somehow it keeps me sane. I'm constantly around people now, some I know, some I don't.. It's funny how I don't really care for that.. At the end of the day, I come home alone, I sleep alone, I feel so alone.

I wished I had a sister. Someone I can just face and have a nice heart-to-heart talk without any fear of the emotional burden. Right now it's up to my neck, I can hardly breathe.

2011-09-21T11:14:00.003+08:00

Day 2 of New Face rehearsals. Daniel Boey is a REALLY nice guy. We were all so intimidated by him at first but last night was really productive. Good job to all the girls and the team! I can't wait for hair and make-up to be settled as well as the styling segment. Can't believe we're almost there for the grand finals :-(

On a side note, I have SO MANY bruises from saturday. They are like all over my knees and now I have to wear tights/jeans just to cover it up. Hope it goes away soon! Prata with a friend before he leaves for UK this friday and then it's girls night out @ Phuture. Don't worry people... I'm stayin' away from teh booze for sure ;)

2011-09-18T10:06:00.004+08:00

10:06 am and I'm wide awake. Crazy night at Avalon, moving onto Pangaea and then Filter. Kobe Bryant was there, went to say hi for abit but was overall super disappointed with both clubs. Sure, they were hella exclusive but what's the point when the crowd is well, "Meh."

Anyway, I'm still pretty hungover. Woke up bout half an hour ago and first thing I did was to search my bag for my BB - Which, fortunately, still is there ;) Tried to think about what happened last night but all I could remember was really, really,REALLY good music at Filter.

I feel like shit though. Friend's birthday party in like less than 3 hours and I'm still hungover as shit. Told myself to put an extremely tough BB password so I don't drunk text but apparently it didn't work. Phone's dead though..... Too embarrassed to charge it and see what the hell I've been doing last night.

One thing's for sure. This is one of the last crazy weekends I'll have in awhile. May go alcohol-free until Zoukout happens in Dec. Hope all of y'all had a banging Sat night!

LV Maison

2011-09-17T12:36:00.002+08:00

This building, is freaking amaaaaazing. Way to go LV.

2011-09-16T23:39:00.001+08:00

... You don't know this but I feel so much better just seeing you today

BB 9900

2011-09-16T16:06:00.003+08:00

Everything's finally taking a toll on me. I'm sick and down with the big 3 - Cough, Flu + Fever. On a side note, I finally got the 9900! Only downside is that the battery life sucks and can only last me a day at maximum. Love it though. Best $550 ever spent!

2011-09-14T21:46:00.003+08:00

Feeling a little hot and bothered (Ha, no not the dirty way). Must've been the rain and the haze. Throat's feeling a little itchy and the nose's a little runny. Someone told me my blog's a little dry cos it's always words but this ain't tumblr.. I'm probably the only one left who actually blogs how they feel. Right now I'm just a little jaded.. It's amazing how we push away the ones that matter to welcome those who won't stay. Anyway, just saying. Got tons of work to do and it's finally the last day of school for the term tomorrow.

#storyofmylife

2011-09-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

Well um. Highlight of the week? Someone stole my 2 month old Blackberry. Was texting a friend @ Attica, placed the phone back into my purse, a minute later wanted to check for the reply and my phone was gone. I was half smashed so I didn't really remember if I placed it in my pockets? But I felt around and it was gone. Took me TWO minutes to sober up and feel the full wave of sadness wash over me :-(

Years of contacts - Gone just like that. I seriously don't understand people's mentality when they decide to steal something SO personal. Like take my money, cards, whatever - But handphone?

*Heartbroken

2011-09-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

Been crazy ass packed over the week! To sum it up: Tuesday had a full day shoot for a hair editorial for the Nov edition of Cosmopolitan (sg edition). Had to go to school after that to finish my work, weds morning 8 A.M I'm up and ready to roll to school. Stayed back till 10 to finish my work. Today, thursday, 8 A.M I'm up again, school from 10-6 and then the Abercrombie meet and greet - 6.30 P.M till right now. Just got home.

Been having 3-4 hours sleep the past few nights. Tomorrow's gonna be crazy. Hittin' the sheets soon and tomorrow's work from 2-6 P.M then club Soul for Sheryna's birthday and Attica. Bring on the Vodka I'm ready for a blastin' friday night!

P.S: Guys if you haven't already, please do me a favour by "Liking" this page!

http://www.tnp.sg/newface2011/profiles/marisa-ong

Would be awesome if you guys could pass it onto your friends too.

Thanks and LET'S HAVE A ROCKIN' WEEKEND xxx

Karma

2011-09-06T22:32:00.003+08:00

Feeling down... Don't know why.

Maybe it's because my mooncake has eggs in them.......

.... Well I'm just sad.

Quickie

2011-09-05T10:56:00.002+08:00

Quick update!

#1 It's freaking Monday again -.-

#2 Heading down to school to submit assignments

#3 Going to SPH for 91.3 FM radio recording @ 2:30

#4 Heading down to the office @ 3

#5 End work at 6, go home and rush through my remaining assignments

On a sidenote, it's 5th september!

I'm psyched for tomorrow, Will be doing my Cosmo shoot + my new paper set will be out tomorrow so grab a copy! ^_^v

A post a day

2011-09-03T19:54:00.001+08:00

Well work @ Abercrombie started for me yesterday and it was pretty chill. Basically walked around town tryna find suitable people to work for the company when the outlet opens in December. Pretty psyched about the opening I'm sure it'll be much more kickass than H&M's one ;)

Here's a vid for the opening in Milan. Queue looks crazy and I'm hoping it'll be badass like this in Singapore!

On a sidenote, stayin' off the alcohol these next few weeks.

Am starting to bloat like crazy. Time to hit the gym and get a good read!

Poison

2011-09-02T00:35:00.002+08:00

...

party girls are not dumb

they're just void and empty

no emotions so they drink

i've sold my soul to the devil

... free and selfish

come what may

Heels + Socks

2011-08-30T19:09:00.002+08:00

Heading out to LeNoir this weekend. Heels with socks? Will try them soon!!

$$$$

2011-08-28T15:00:00.002+08:00

Got too smashed at Royal on teh 26th. Woke up the next morning with a swollen eye. Bro says it's eye stye (NO IT'S NOT CONTAGIOUS THANKX) due to lack of sleep + hygiene. Went straight after my (6 hour) lookbook shoot and came home, too drunk to remove my make-up and went to bed. That explains it....

On a sidenote, my New Paper spread comes out on the 6th Of Sep and I'm so psyched! Same day when I'll be doing my Cosmo shoot @ ACP. Been really thinking about the future and penning down some business plans. Time to make some monneh.

2011-08-26T09:54:00.002+08:00

Getting ready for my Lookbook shoot @ 1 later on today and then it's Zouk tonight! Going down to support the New Paper girls in Model For Hope. Bag's gonna be killer heavy with all my heels. See you guys there if you're going! x

Learning Phase

2011-08-24T10:00:00.002+08:00

4 more weeks and I'm down with this semester. Seems like everything I talk about here's about school ain't it. Went to Filter on saturday and it was pretty eye-opening. Talk about not being able to learn from clubbing? I actually did! It wasn't as packed (which is good I'm fucking claustrophobic) but like the girls there were all like carbon-copies of each other.

Yea sure, I may be in that phase of wanting to go to different clubs/pubs just to hangout and stuff but I'm definitely able to "control" myself. Still a boring homegirl at heart *awwwwwwww

On a sidenote, I think I MAY HAVE taken a step further into motherhood. I actually..enjoy..baking and cooking... x.x

Work

2011-08-22T12:16:00.003+08:00

#1 Starting work @ Abercrombie on Monday

#2 New Face commitments for rehearsals

#3 School work

#4 Internship due in 3/6 months

Refresh

2011-08-21T11:08:00.002+08:00

Let you beat me down too many times, wonder why I didn't open my eyes sooner. I deserve better, all this will come to an end now>

2011-08-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

Back but don't really want to be here.

Teh ghettoz

2011-08-18T18:45:00.003+08:00

Leaving for Malaysia in 2 hours for the weekend! I seriously look anaemic without makeup.... Hope I don't get mobbed. Bought a pair of new specs yesterday... Lost the other pair somehow. In dire need of some activities!!! I miss my best friend so much xxxxxxx

Jodi Picoult

2011-08-15T12:24:00.002+08:00

Just watched My Sister's Keeper on my Macbook and never in my life have I cried from the beginning right to the end. I read the book written by Jodi Picoult and normally movies ruin the book because they cut so much content, but this one was so beautifully produced. From the cast, to the location filmed and everything... Maybe it felt close to me because I lost my dad to cancer too. It felt good though.... Finally releasing all the pent up sadness and frustrations I've built over the years. I guess that's why I'm quiet most of the times.

2011-08-12T22:18:00.001+08:00

Friday friday gotta get down on friday.............. And I'm home playing the stupid game on Safari. I really wanna hang out but I've got a shoot for the new paper tomorrow. Gah, maybe Zouk on a saturday night. I REALLY need to go out more.

Nail Art

2011-08-08T21:20:00.003+08:00

Gonna get me some.
(Credit: nailartportal.blogspot)

Enough is Enough

2011-08-06T10:59:00.003+08:00

Time to set my priorities right for once... Yesterday at Le Noir was pretty eye-opening. It wasn't fun, I had a hard time squeezing around 6ft tall models and then moving onto Filter which was even worst. This once again reconfirms the fact that I'm not clubbing material and I've had champagne sprayed all over me, I'm an entire mess.

One more thing.. School before modeling. Enough is Enough. Went for the Cosmopolitan casting the other day and my agency told me that the client asked if I was free on Aug 10th, which is a Weds (And which I have school) and then weighed my scale.. Should I skip class for the job? My attendance is already on the line and there are no other options. This job is big and will GREATLY help my portfolio.. But after much thought..... I'll let it go. I can't risk breaking my mom's heart over a magazine. It's not worth it.

Notices

2011-08-02T19:54:00.002+08:00

2nd day of August and I've promised myself NOT to screw up but unfortunately couldn't hold my promise (as usual.) Skipped class today because I forgot to do my assignment and that made me feel really shitty cos one more absence and I officially fail by attendance. On a side note, memorizing my script for the mascara commercial casting and then Abercrombie interview at 6pm tomorrow. Ladies night Weds - Contemplating whether to head out.. Have Cosmopolitan casting thursday morning as well as class.. Gah, I NEED A PRIORITY PLANNER IN MY LIFE x.x